Well, I can certainly be happy for your first two sentences but personally I can not concur with your views in the third.
I'm not sure I have appropriate experience to be of use to you. Guess what I would be confident in saying to you, is to concentrate on the fact that Christ reaches you. And I promise you categorically that you do not need to meet any criteria that Joseph Smith might have instigated in order to be found by Jesus. You do not need to have a signed certificate from Joseph in order to be found in Christ.
I would very gently further ask you to consider why your personal witness from God is the way to go when it differs from the personal witness via the established history that so very many other people have.
But, hey, this is all a journey. I am glad to hear from you and if the board can assist you in your journey then I am sure there are those who will be happy to throw out a thought or two.
And it is so great that you have your wife and children with you.
We do deal with thinking, questioning, researching, discussing and recovering here. It is not always pretty. It is often tough, gritty and you will certainly find out what you are made of. And you will meet with the very best of people.
You may be interested to check out richkelsy.org and I expect Rich will be of great value to you in your searching. I also greatly value askreality and you can watch his work on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xrZkzLANdJU
to get you started.